Are they being brainwashed? Am I being too caring? Too nice?

Are they stupid? Is that too harsh? Do they know what they’re doing? Are they sure?!

IS ANY OF THIS EVEN TRUE?! EVEN WORTH WORRYING/THINKING ABOUT?!

For every question theres an answer contradicting my first thought. How do i get past this? My fault for being too stupid? Dumb? Naive? I won’t let anyone go thru any of these feelings i’ve felt tonite..it’s nasty. Once again, I put myself out for people who don’t seem to care.

I didn’t think it was possible to feel a million feelings one after another, huh. Guess I proved myself wrong again there! Once so close -or was that actually ‘close’? – and now in different worlds. Literally.

I just don’t know. Okay? </3

It’s crazy, maybe I’m going insane! I miss it. Quite a few ‘what if’s’ floating abt in my head rite now.

Not that it’ll change anything.

I ask ONE thing. Don’t, please DON’T give up on me. Yet. I remember what you told me. An if you still think abt me, I think you should know I think abt you every single day, without fail. Don’t ever forget about me.

Unbelievably. Confused.

Need. Answers.

ARGH!!

“Because it’s only when you’re tested that you truly discover who you are. And it’s only when you’re tested that you discover who you can be. The person that you want to be, does exist – somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith, and belief beyond the HEARTACHE and fear of what life has. But once in a while, people push on to something better, something found just beyond the pain of going it alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream.”

“There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad; afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.”

“Someone once told me, every song has an ending, Jake, but is that any reason not to enjoy the music?”

“Every song has a CODA – a final movement, whether it fades out, or crashes away. Every song ends. Is that any reason not to enjoy the music? The truth is, there’s nothing to be afraid of. It’s just life.”   <33

Khalil Gibran once wrote:

“Your reason and your passion are the rudder and sails of your seafaring soul. If either be broken, you can but toss and drift or else be held at standstill in mid-seas. For reason, ruling alone, is a force confining. And passion, unattended, is a flame that burns to it’s own destruction.”

Octovio Paz once wrote:

“Solitude is the profoundest fact of the human condition. Man is the only being who knows he is alone.”

What a frightening thing the human is; a mass of gauges and dials and registers, and we can read only a few and those perhaps, not accurately.

Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible. It is yours.

“I think I should have no other mortal wants, if I could always have plenty of music. It seems to infuse strength into my limbs and ideas into my brain. Life seems to go on without effort, when I am filled with music.”

When music becomes a part of your life, beautiful things happen. You start supplementing your vision with the pleasant notes of nature, adding that favorite symphony to the tranquility of the Kashmir valley, or maybe overlay the latest simple plan punk rock single on being scolded upon by parents. Now, that makes life a bit more interesting…eh!

Pretty self explanatory, hey?

Some, are running scared, some are coming home. Some tell lies, just to make it through the day, others are now just facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls. And sometimes, all you need, is one.”

“There comes a time where every life goes off course. In this desperate moment, you must choose your directioning. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honoured by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning, you choose to move forward or to simply give up.”

Lucas Scott on Brooke Davis:

“She was fiercely independent. Brilliant and beautiful, and brave. In two years, she had grown more than anyone I had ever known. She is going to change the world someday. I’m not sure she even knows it.”

What matters the most? Is it about the things we create? The things we achieve? The awards we win? Is it about who we are when we fail? What’s more important – what we become, or how we become it?

E.E. Cummings once wrote:

“Be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best night and day to make you somebody else. It means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight and never stop fighting.”

Happiness comes in many forms – in the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else’s dream come true, or in the promise of hope renewed.

Sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you’ve been. And remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are.

Stepping up. It’s a simple concept. It basically means to rise above yourself, to do a little more, to show you something special. Sometimes, when you’re young, you think nothing can hurt you. It’s like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you, and you have big plans. To find your perfect match. The one that completes you.

Mistakes are painful when they happen, but years later, a collection of mistakes called experience, leads us to SUCCESS.

I thank whatever Gods may be, for my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance, I have not winced, not cried abud,

Under the bludgeonings of chance, my head is bloody, but bowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears, looms but the horror of the shade,

And yet the menace of the years, finds, and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate, how charged with punishment the scroll,

I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul.”

‘aham ausadam’

“i am the healing herb,(BG 9.16), hold your breath and swallow.’

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“Many of life’s failures are men who did not realise how close they were to success when they gave up.”  which i guess it pretty true, but sometimes i feel quotes only really make a difference depending on your mood.

There’s so much in this life that I want to believe; so many people I want to trust, I want to believe. The hardest thing I find, is being honest with myself. It often proves difficult on so many different levels.

I feel like I’m waiting on something, someone.

When I got a little older I realised you have to work for it. It’s not really how it seems – I had this vision when I was younger, that we were the pieces on a chess board, an God was the player. I thought everything was down to him, an i truly believed that sometimes the things we were doing, were a bit strange. Naivety matures with time, or is it just me?

It’s funny how you figure things out. Needless to say, I was pretty shocked. The word responsibility comes to mind.

It’s fine if you have principles, rite? Just don’t use them to judge or shape others. They’re yours, and yours alone.

Why do I feel like I’ve lost something I didn’t ever have? …

I want to believe it, I really do.

A programme which makes me think often, quotes:

“The words of children, and in the bars of a song, in the eyes of the person you love, and if you’re lucky – the luckiest person alive – the person you love decides to love you back.”

I just thought it was a good quote. An yeah, it did make me think, but what doesn’t?