‘Windfall’ Emotions
February 18, 2010
I don’t know if I’d rather not have found out.
Are they being brainwashed? Am I being too caring? Too nice?
Are they stupid? Is that too harsh? Do they know what they’re doing? Are they sure?!
IS ANY OF THIS EVEN TRUE?! EVEN WORTH WORRYING/THINKING ABOUT?!
For every question theres an answer contradicting my first thought. How do i get past this? My fault for being too stupid? Dumb? Naive? I won’t let anyone go thru any of these feelings i’ve felt tonite..it’s nasty. Once again, I put myself out for people who don’t seem to care.
I didn’t think it was possible to feel a million feelings one after another, huh. Guess I proved myself wrong again there! Once so close -or was that actually ‘close’? – and now in different worlds. Literally.
I just don’t know. Okay? </3
