‘Windfall’ Emotions

I don’t know if I’d rather not have found out.

Are they being brainwashed? Am I being too caring? Too nice?

Are they stupid? Is that too harsh? Do they know what they’re doing? Are they sure?!

IS ANY OF THIS EVEN TRUE?! EVEN WORTH WORRYING/THINKING ABOUT?!

For every question theres an answer contradicting my first thought. How do i get past this? My fault for being too stupid? Dumb? Naive? I won’t let anyone go thru any of these feelings i’ve felt tonite..it’s nasty. Once again, I put myself out for people who don’t seem to care.

I didn’t think it was possible to feel a million feelings one after another, huh. Guess I proved myself wrong again there! Once so close -or was that actually ‘close’? – and now in different worlds. Literally.

I just don’t know. Okay? </3

Do you really want a title? Yes? Here.

Almost a year on. An I’m STILL waiting on it. Quite a joke really, how can this b anything like I’m imagining it to b?

It’s crazy, maybe I’m going insane! I miss it. Quite a few ‘what if’s’ floating abt in my head rite now.

Not that it’ll change anything.

I ask ONE thing. Don’t, please DON’T give up on me. Yet. I remember what you told me. An if you still think abt me, I think you should know I think abt you every single day, without fail. Don’t ever forget about me.